1 post tagged “planning”

There was about an hour in my day today that felt electric.  I felt some of the cloud of depression give just a little, and I got a glimmer of hope.  I’d like to say I had a spiritual epiphany that I finally found God in a way that made it all better.  Nope.  He wasn’t lost.  That would be me.  Uh… moving on… 

It all happened in the space of a few moments but we spent hours afterward considering the possible consequences.  Sorry, I’ll have to be rather vague here but what I can say…  SUDDENLY: An invitation to apply for a job at a place where I shop often and spend much moolah followed only a few seconds later by a phone call that brought both of us to a nearly giddy place of contemplating some serious improvement in our financial situation.  Oy!  Just for a second there I had a burst of hope and possibility.  Just for a moment I saw just how seriously sad I am and how much that “stuckness” is draining the life from me, maybe even making me physically ill.  Shocking to see yourself that way, but it was also strangely hopeful. 

So I have a plan. 

I'm going to dream again.  Yes I am!

I’m going to spend some time clarifying my vision – what is it that I really want to see happen here?  What can I possibly discern of what God wants to see happen here?  Do a little dreaming, right furiously in my journal and stare wide eyed into space while my tea grows cold and my dogs nap on the floor by me.  Hmmm…. Sounds yummy!

I’m going to apply for that job.  *giggle!*  Yeah, actually I already have.  (I've applied twice before and came so close...  but not close enough)  But don’t tell anyone...  It’s our little secret.  J  More money and an employee discount that kicks ass and benefits?  For real?  Pinch me!

I’m going to do whatever it takes to get the process rolling on the other opportunity.  No grass growing under my feet there.  No sir!

I’ve been thinking again about the next phase of business for me.  I am going to put some serious thought into that once more, pray a lot, create a plan and then see what I can do to work it on out.  Especially with kids added into the mix…  hmmm… that’s going to be an interesting brainstorming session!  Yeah baby!

And I’m going to get into another writing project.  I wish they did NaNoWriMo any month of the year and at any given time you could log in and write a book with a bunch of other people somewhere around the world.  I’d totally dig that right now.  It helped to have that artificial pressure – otherwise…  uh… what was I sayin? 

To celebrate my happy moment I bought shelves for my laundry room.  So once I get the kitchen backsplash tile project finished (or sooner) I’ll be dragging the chaos out of the laundry room and putting up those shelves and bringing back ORDER.  Hallelujah! 

Hope just feels good all over.