Where is this road taking us??

Ok, I’ve been struggling with this over a week now and we haven’t gotten any answers so I’m losing my battle over trying not to get really depressed.  Hubby was told in a phone conversation with our adoption agency that if we don’t have a positive net worth, that our application to adopt will not be accepted by Colombia.  We don’t have a positive net worth, and the years it would take us to get one would pretty much royally piss me off make me too old to raise a kid.  Secondly, they knew our financial situation and that we did not have a positive net worth going in, so how could they turn around now (after we’ve paid THOUSANDS of dollars – ALL non-refundable) and turn us away?  (Heads would ROLL!)  And who has a positive net worth in this country right now anyway?!

I’m trying really hard, but honestly, if we don’t get this sorted out, life is going to get really unpleasant around here. 

Our Social Worker (who is separate from our adoption agency) would not approve us for the number of kids we wanted until we bought a bigger house.  And the old one has not sold yet.  Ok, no kidding – we didn’t have a positive net worth before that but right now it looks even worse while we own two houses.  And selling one won’t take that number into positive territory.

We need a miracle.  We’ve seen so many along the way.  The purchase of this house was a whole string of miracles.  We just need a few more.  I’m committed to trust God that something is going to break here.  And between now and then I’m caught on the edge of a rather large cliff, trying desperately not to lose my footing.  Prayers welcome!  (Please God Please God Please God...)